THE MANY FEELS I’M HAVING AND SINGING THROUGH IT ALL :) :)

HEY EVERYONE! Today is my day off from work. Which my days off are Wednesday and Sunday’s. So I try to play catch up with helping others, family time, house work, school and whatever else needs to be done. I cherish all the time I can. I try to be a week ahead in school between calls at work or break from work or down time when I can’t sleep. Which lately that’s been a big issue. Due to some back issues. But all is well. I keep going. We’re trying to buy our first house too. So that’s been a big emotional rollercoaster ha-ha. That’s life though. You got to find humor and just love it. Just love life and keep smiling and being grateful and whatever happens. Life gives you more chances and even better. 🙂 So will see how it goes!

Amongst a lot of things going on in the world that I physically can’t be there for everyone. So I do what I can even if it’s just a prayer,poem,call,letter,message,donation or whatever the case may be. I know that my heart keeps growing and I just want everyone around the world to know they are loved. They are incredible,amazing,gifted,somebody,and that no matter what they face individually or as a family, country, or whatever the case may be, that they matter and they are thought of. Same with my husband, children,family, friends and those around me. I care so much about others, you don’t know how bad. Sometimes people think too much and that I get hurt a lot. Yet, I must forgive. I must keep showing compassion and love. After all that’s what I’ve been shown and continue to be shown since birth from parents,siblings,family,friends,gospel,and strangers.

I enjoyed celebrating with my husband and his parents yesterday for his birthday. I truly have an amazing man. He works so hard to provide and so grateful that when we both didn’t want a relationship, because of the previous marriages we had and the hurt, that the lord said NO! This is what I want so we got closer. Despite our challenges in our own life, we’ve come closer and closer. It’s so great. And when he’s gone restoring power as he so loves being a powerlineman, I know all is well and he’s doing awesome things. Just as he’s an amazing dad. Even though I’m not our beautiful son (17yrs) and daughter 6(yrs) mom. I’m still a mother and I love them. I respect that they will always love and cherish their mom. I respect they see them sometime and in future may be more. I respect that they will go to her more for decisions or their dad than me. But I love them as they are my own.

I’m grateful our son is a half credit from graduating. He is done with high school soon. And I’m so glad I could be there even if it’s just an extra mother figure saying I love and support you and along with his dad. Same with our daughter. She’s younger and she will continue to grow knowing that her father loves her so much and so do I. And that I’ll always continue to love and teach her along with her daddy and be a mother to her too. That I’ll never replace their mothers but I’ll have all the room in my heart for them forever. I respect their decisions and not force them to love me. One day they will see what impact I have on their life. Until then I’ll enjoy the blessings of being apart of their life and they are apart of my family . I’m surely blessed. That’s how you make it work and blend families together. Not with hate and judgement . You be there for your children ❤

Just as if any of you feel the same or are in situations , don’t be afraid to be a parent or loved one. Just care for as many people you can . God blesses you in a way that he sends you certain people in your life for a reason. So don’t turn those opportunities down. Show kindness,love,understanding,and compassion not just for children, your own family and friends but everyone. We all are children of God. We all need support and love.

I’m most grateful for my life. For the trials and challenges that make me stronger. For times I feel not great whether physically,emotionally,spiritually, or when I sing, write, as a mother,wife, or other callings. Yet, I’m reminded daily that I’m great as much as I think I am. That there’s always room for improvement but so much to show that I am amazing at whatever I am doing, because I’m doing it. To look above and forward at all I’ve accomplished and doing. That should show you as well. LOOK AT YOU! YOU’RE AMAZING. You don’t wait on someone to tell you that. Learn from your flaws. Love your mistakes and challenges, and embrace life with love and joy. Work through the pain and lean on all the gifts and each other to help each other through. Cherish your time with your family and friends and make time for strangers so they don’t feel lonely and unwanted.

In closing I just want to share some songs of me singing today. I sing because I feel . I sing because I love to express and sing the way I want too. I’m not perfect. No one is. Just as in my writing and other talents. Yet, I keep going. I have my dreams and passions. They will keep growing and coming out to serve and help others. I hope the same for you too. Love supporting others in their dreams and passions. You have them! Up to you to find them .

Just as I keep going in school and being a great wife and mother, daughter,friend, and servant. I’m most grateful for all that I’m given and so much more. That all will be well. Things happen for a reason and we may not always see that plan. But what we do during those times is what matters. So don’t waste it. Seek the joy! Seek the service. Embrace the gifts and talents and share among others. Leave no one behind. Follow and support and hope they do the same.

Enjoy the music ! Enjoy your life. All the best! Much love ~ Jackie

 

SONGBIRD ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/ac75af2ab

WAYFARING STRANGER ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/ac6d19eeb

AFTER THE GOLD RUSH ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/af788bbeb

FREEDOM ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/b38d86a6b

WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/b078a410b

 

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