HEY PEEPS~ HAPPY SUNDAY! HOPE YOU’RE DOING WELL. DO YOU KNOW TRULY HOW AWESOME AND AMAZING YOU ARE? I AM SERIOUS! I AM FULL OF SO MUCH HEART,LOVE,PAIN,AND FORGIVENESS. MY HEART GROWS EACH DAY. I KNOW I DON’T HAVE TO EXPLAIN WHO I AM OR WHAT I AM DOING. JUST THE SAME AS YOU IN YOUR LIFE. YOU DON’T HAVE TO EXPLAIN WHY YOU DON’T DO SOMETHING OR GO SOMEWHERE OR HOW YOU ARE. YOU ARE YOU. A WORK IN PROGRESS TOO AND ARE AMAZING! WHETHER YOU TRULY BELIEVE ME OR NOT. THAT’S YOUR CHOICE. DON’T THINK I’M PERFECT AND ALWAYS POSITIVE. DON’T MISTAKE ME FOR ALWAYS BEING INSPIRING AND SHINING. I AM MY DAYS. OH BOY DO I EVER. THANK GOODNESS FOR REPENTANCE.
Just as I’ve been facing so many trials with my health whether bloody noses, continued pain, and trying to pack and move into the house we are buying. YES! We finally are buying a house thanks to an amazing and wonderful couple from church. They have truly blessed our family. And of course being new to all this, it’s been a heck of a roller coaster. Lack of eating,stress, disappointments, crying, being upset, wondering, and trying to take it all in. So much do this or do that. Sign this or get this. And here we’re both working, and I’m going to school full-time, and we have a 17-year-old and 6-year-old and other trials in our life. Still takes a year to see if my surgery worked and then hubby having to take off for his work til Thanksgiving. So guess who is packing the house ? Yep! Thank goodness for kids. Thank goodness for working from home and going to BYU-Idaho online. Thankful for all the blessings,prayers,love and support of others. Thank you to all those I can service to forget my needs and concerns in any way I can.
That’s the best way til you literally crash at 6pm and don’t wake up til 1pm today and realize that you have missed church . You have so much to do. You have an exhausted husband who just keeps going and helps you in so many ways. You have beautiful kids to share this experience with. We can’t wait to get into our home. Family is everything. This is a HUGE milestone for us. If you knew the trials that we’ve had and continue to endure, you would see. It wouldn’t be possible without of faith,prayers, love, devotion,hard work,counsel,friends,family,owners, and especially God! And countless forgiveness from him from different attitudes. MOVING IS SO HARD.Especially since I’ve moved a lot over the 15 years and so has my husband due to previous relationships. But we’ve made it and we are seeing the joy no matter how much we don’t feel good. No matter the pain from getting use to moving after surgery etc.. No matter the sacrifices and time. IT Is SO WONDERFUL AND WE’RE SO BLESSED.
Just like we all are blessed in our lives. No matter what you have endured or enduring find the joy. I am still doing crafts,scrapbook,being a step mom, wife, ward missionary, daughter, friend, and of service. I continue to sing and write. All I do isn’t perfect. I fail a lot. I miss opportunities. I sometimes don’t try too hard and it gets me so down and exhausted or my anxiety and depression kicks in. But you know what? I look around. I let it run its course but I take steps with faith and keep going. I see so much joy. In my life and around me. In my family and friends. In all those I serve. Especially in all I see and support across the world.
You all that read this or don’t. Your talents are amazing. I am seeing so many amazing things and I am truly blessed to help support you. I pray for you. I think of you. I hurt for you. I cry for you. I try to uplift you. Even if you don’t know me. Even if you don’t follow back or I can’t follow back . Trust me, my heart is for you. YES YOU! I am just one person and you touch my life everyday in many ways. You are beautiful. Amazing. Talented in whatever gift you have. So grateful to look out side, drive, go places, eat,smell,see, hear, or watch, or use internet, mail or whatever way I can to support and know how incredible you are. You may be exhausted too. You may have given up or going too. I can’t tell you you’re fine. You aren’t fine. But I can tell you, you are wonderful. You have gifts and talents. You will bounce back in your own time. Just believe in yourself. Stop and see and look or hear or notice the joy you bring others. Even if it’s just one person like me.
Life SUCKS! It truly does. It’s no pancake. It’s hard work that never ends . You get back up and then BAM! Get hit back again. Yet, there’s that joy that you must see. Look at how amazing you are and what you are working to be. Don’t you give up. See the blessings. I know we’re all tired of all that is going on. That’s life. It’s going to get worse. But if we see that when we’re exhausted and tired, that there’s more joy than heartache. Let your emotions out. Be who you are. Don’t focus on the ones that hate or despise you. Don’t worry about those that think they are better than you. Never count your ”followers”. You are a person and special and priceless. Numbers don’t mean anything. Trust me! I don’t know if one person reads this. I don’t care. What I care is that you are safe. You are fed. You are experiencing your life and dreams. That you are finding joy. You are resting.. You are being supported. That you know you’re beautiful and amazing especially in all the hell you have or experiencing. I only care that you are doing it. That you are moving forward.
If you aren’t then please do. Please share your talents and gifts. Show me and others what you can do. Do it FOR YOU! You are inspiring. I have seen so much heartache and so much hatred and comparing . WE NEED TO STOP THAT! We need the joy to spread. Not just one day. To continue. I’m just one voice but I’m doing it. And well if I am only one then so be it. Because I know what matters.. I’m working on my stage fright. When you’ve been hurt so much and bullied. We you have given up all the singing and playing piano. When you gave up arts,crafts,scrapbook and so much more and let depression hit and those that hurt you take over.. You lose yourself. Well for last few years I’ve been better than ever. And I rather see my beauty and my uniqueness on how I shine and share my talents. How I treat others. How I forgive and see my joy in my life. How proud I am . I am loving myself to do so. It is exhausting to keep going but I do . I don’t stop and neither should you. REGAIN YOUR STRENGTH. JOY IS WITHIN YOU AND NEEDS TO BE SHARED> I AM SO BLESSED AND WORKING ON MY GIFTS. So I can share the inspiration,joy,love,and support for family and friends and all those I can. Because with tears in my eyes, you need to know you are priceless and wonderful and I don’t care where you come from. you matter to me. Don’t you give up. Rest and find the joy 🙂
ALL THE BEST ~ Jackie
Some songs I’ve sang 🙂 Keep practicing
PHOTOGRAPH ~ NEW WAY ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/c194e5b6d
SAY SOMETHING ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/b87aee65b
AFTER THE GOLD RUSH ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/af788bbeb
WAYFARING STRANGER ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/ac6d19eeb
I WANNA ~ SONG I WROTE ~ https://soundcloud.com/3532
CHASING CARS ~http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/c194e5b6d
AMAZING GRACE (MY CHAINS ARE GONE ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/be94b76e1
I CROSS MY HEART ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/bbb5d6b61
THAT MOMENT ~ SONG I WROTE ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/bf8d8b547
PHOTOGRAPH~ FIRST TIME SINGING ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/b9a77a435
HIGH SIERRA ~ http://www.singsnap.com/karaoke/r/cdbc6875d