Hello, all my beautiful peeps! I want you to know YOU ARE AWESOME! YOU ARE AMAZING! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! YOU ARE GIFTED! Now I said that it’s up to you to take it or forget it. If it’s something you’ve been wanting your whole life to be noticed or told these things well then here they are. You just have to believe in yourself to see it for yourself. I don’t have to support, write, or tell you these things. Same with I don’t have to support anyone in their dreams, passions, and whatever they choose to be. I do it because I WANT TOO! I enjoy it! I love it! I appreciate your work or gifts , talents, and personality. I love my husband, children, family and friends and all of you across the globe. If I cared about people supporting me in my dreams and talents, I’d pay more attention who’s following this or my social media. But that’s not who I am. I do it when I feel prompted or have something to say.

So you can go about your days and months and even years waiting for someone to notice and give you opportunities. Or you make it happen. With just a small step. Get out there and share! We all have talents whether in physical, emotional, spiritual , or whatever else there is. Some sing and write and art like me. Or love helping others like me. Your talents are endless. They can be dancing, video games, building, serving, kindness, whatever .. it makes you even better. So dream away and make it happen. If a door closes it wasn’t meant for you to give up. It was meant for you to open another door and take a chance. Yes, it’s disappointing.. but really you are the one that makes it that way. Brush it off and know how amazing you are.

I sing and write and doodle not to be like this other person or this singer. I do it because I EXPRESS. I FEEL> I LOVE! And I do it for comfort for others. One day my cd/cds and more books and whatever else I decided will come about. I’ve been rejected a lot and well, that’s just fine. It hurts but I just keep going. I do it the way I want to do it. I am who I want to be and that is being tested and tried and turning into something so better and beautiful. Doesn’t matter who we are and where we come from. Doesn’t matter if no one notices or not. It matters within you. You had something light that spark so keep it lite. We’re all around to love and support. And if some feel that ”you’re not good enough” well love and support them anyway. You don’t have to do what they do. NEVER GIVE UP. You have what you have to offer and share. Only you can make it happen. You don’t have to live a certain place or have certain looks, or change who you are. I see so many doing that. BE YOU! YOU ! YOU ! YOU ARE WHAT MAKES THIS WORLD SPECIAL > So go make it count.

SONGS THAT I’VE BEEN SINGING Much love! ENjoy .. all the best ~ Jackie









I wanted to do more than just pray and give my thoughts of love and comfort for all those that have needed it more than ever. With all the disasters and tragedies happening and happened. I figured I would sing a song. A song that we’re blessed by the artist to share. I don’t care how I’m singing it. It’s how I feel and what I wanted to do for all those who are suffering. More of saying I’m thinking of you and Hope that you’ll find comfort.

May we all use our talents and gifts in all of our days. May we stand together and uplift and not tear each other down. May we know we all matter and life is short. To always remember why we’re here and where we need to be. To give unto each other and love and support endlessly.

God bless and sending prayers and love always and forever. My heart is always full and still has room for so much more. All I wish is for everyone to have happiness,find their joy, be safe,loved, conquer all their dreams and desires. For I’m blessed with an amazing husband and family and friends. So why not share that with you as well. For you are worth it. May not be worth much to you in this post, but to me it means the world and the thought that counts. STAY SAFE! BE WELL! KNOW YOU’RE LOVED. No matter what trials we face or are facing, that we’re never alone. Stay strong.

Much Love ~All the best~ Jackie ❤

Dancing in the sky ~


So in case you’ve been wondering what I’ve been up too….Well first year of college on Week 3.. 3 classes (6 credits) Working towards Bachelor’s of Science in Marriage and Family Studies degree..It’s challenging but I’m doing it.. So besides that and working and being a mom and wife, and house hunting, and life and physical therapy on my neck and back for post surgery of neck. Then I went to do my Mri with contrast yesterday which I hated because I couldn’t hardly breathe. Tight space, don’t like. But I listened to good music 🙂 So I’ll get the results of that in next couple days and see what will happen from there.

I was blessed to give a talk on Foundation of Faith . So I’ll post it here in case you want to read it. It’s long but when I gave it, I totally was guided. And well it was a step towards facing my fear of stage fright. It didn’t matter if it sucked or not. I was asked and there was a reason , so I did it. I can do hard things. So can you. We have been looking at homes the past couple years and more full force last few months. And we know it’s up to God! So all things will work out when they are needed. But let me tell you trying to buy a house brings so so so many emotions and hard work LOL. But like I said , we’re putting the faith in God and we done our part. Things happen for all reasons so wherever we end up , then that’s where we need to be. So if you pray then that would be nice.

The hubby is back from restoring power in Florida . What a great example he’s been and so happy to have him home! So grateful for all that continues to help ❤ May we always continue to cherish our family and friends and those in hard times. My heart continues to grow and continues to send much love,prayers,comfort and support to all my family, friends, and all those around the world that are experiencing trials . Never feel that you’re alone. You matter and you’re thought of and if that’s all I can do, then it’s something. I want everyone to feel comfort and needed and special. Those going through very hard trials Just keep the faith and know in time you’ll get what you need. They may be just words but I wish I could do more than just pray and support you. Just sharing some love. Those in your talents, you keep going. You keep rising and you keep sharing. Never ever give up. Don’t compare . Keep doing what you do~

Continue to know you’re blessed. Continue to know you’re amazing. In hard times or good times you can always push through. Just take those baby steps. Enjoy my talk 🙂 Much love ~ All the best~ Jackie

Referenced my talk from Quentin Cook – General Conference Foundation of Faith (April 2017)



Good Afternoon everyone. It’s so good to be here. Not meaning up here on the stand… Meaning here at church and with my family and that includes all of you. Which works well with the talk I was asked to be given. Jed had called while I was trying to talk to Chris while he was on storm damage in Florida.

The signals were bad. And at the time, I didn’t know who was calling. But then Chris had to go. I then received a text messaged stating it was Jed and for me to call him a second. Right then I knew why. You see, even if you’re behaving and doing what’s right, Heavenly Father sees and knows all. Just as I was asked to give the opening prayer last Sunday. When I went on the stand, I thought, ‘’Man! I give more prayers than talks here. That’s awesome. At least I can pray good.” Something on the lines of that. Well, little did I know my thoughts would get heard for Tuesday night. When Jed started to ask, I told him I figure I knew what he was going to ask. I of course said yes. Then I thought Why?

I then knew why. It was because of my Faith in Christ that Heavenly Father wants me to speak. To have those that need to hear listen, whether it be any of you or myself. All part of Heavenly Father’s plan. Amazing how we quickly hesitate or ask Why a lot. That just means we need to keep growing our faith.

I was asked to reference the talk Foundation of Faith by Quentin Cook from April 2017 General Conference. This talk is a perfect example how to keep our faith and work on building up our faith. I loved this part of his talk which I quote:

“In our family, there is one event of a similar nature that stands out. When our youngest son was about four years old, he came into the house and gleefully announced to the family with great pride: “I can do everything now. I can tie, I can ride, and I can zip.” We understood he was telling us that he could tie his shoes, he could ride his Big Wheel tricycle, and he could zip his coat. We all laughed but realized that for him they were monumental achievements. He thought he had truly arrived and was grown up.”

What an accomplishment that this little boy felt. He had so much desire, excitement and faith in himself. Same as whatever we may do in our lives. We must start from somewhere.Just as the title ‘’foundation of faith’’. Ask ourselves where is our beginning point? I personally feel it’s the start in premortal life. And then when we came to this earth and were born. As we take steps and as we started growing up and making choices for ourselves. The cycle continues. We must have faith to keep going. It all started somewhere.

As stated in Cook’s talk  I quote “We rejoice in these events; they should not be diminished in any way. But for enduring faith and to have the constant companionship of the Spirit, there is no substitute for the individual religious observance that is comparable to physical and mental development. We should build on these experiences, which sometimes resemble initial baby steps. We do this by consecrated commitment to sacred sacrament meetings, scripture study, prayer, and serving as called.”

I personal feel that we must always build our faith up and have that pure foundation. That’s all part of the atonement and renewing our covenants. For we have a chance to rebuild ourselves and fix and repair the damage to our temples. Our body is a temple. It’s a work in progress. Pure foundation that Heavenly Father created and that our Savior sacrificed so much. If he didn’t have a sure foundation of faith in his own life, he wouldn’t have done so much for us. Just as the same as what we are doing in our life. We would learn and grow and make choices and believe in something or try things if we didn’t have faith in it or ourselves that it can happen. Our Heavenly Father wants us to learn. He has set forth trials and just as the little boy being so excited for riding his bike and tying his shoes by himself. He had the mind set he can do anything.

As we can have that in our hearts and in our physical, emotional and spiritual needs. We can do anything, but not by ourselves. We must take those baby steps. We need the constant companion of the Holy Ghost. Not just on Sundays. Not just when we get married, or go on a mission, or start a new job or new project. We can be excited and have faith in ourselves, but what happens if we stumble? If our temples fall apart?

If we don’t have that stable faith and sacredness of accepting our lords help, the adversary will get in and he will destroy in every crack that he can squeeze. Which then we start losing our faith and there for the foundation starts falling apart. Our faith in ourselves, our family, our Heavenly Father and Savior, diminishes. And then we are left with nothing. No hope. We start doubting more and fearing more.

Another great part from Quentin’s talk that I’d like to share and it would be great if you can go home and ponder and read this talk from Quentin Cook.

“Adversity should not be viewed as either disfavor from the Lord or a withdrawal of His blessings. Opposition in all things is part of the refiner’s fire to prepare us for an eternal celestial destiny.14 When the Prophet Joseph was in Liberty Jail, the words of the Lord to him described all manner of challenges—including tribulations and false accusations—and conclude:

“If the very jaws of hell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good.”


Just because we have trials and sometimes many at one time, doesn’t mean that Heavenly Father wants our faith to be destroyed. We’re here to be tested. To be tempted. To choose. Not just for this life temporary but for our eternal life to come. We’re being built up. The foundation of our faith is being built each day and faith is what powers us to become what Our Heavenly Father wants us to be. We may not see that now, but doesn’t mean we can’t have faith and believe in it.

So, let’s keep each other’s foundations solid. We are all Family and God’s children. No sheep as it’s said should be left behind. Neither should our testimonies and our strength be diminished. We will have times where we fall. Where we make bad choices. Our temples will either start to crumble or fall. Doesn’t mean that it’s the end. That’s all part of having faith in Our Savior to help lift us back up. Having each other to pray, visit, strengthen, teach, love and support to bring each other together. To keep our eyes on the fullness of the gospel with prayer and scripture study. Not to do so in a hurry. To do so with an open mind and heart. Ask questions. To build ourselves up and what we know to be true.

Just as Joseph smith as a young boy knew that he had so much faith in what he seen and knew to be true. Which brought us another testament of Jesus Christ and other scriptures. Look how much growth the church has grown since Jesus came to earth? Since the fall of Adam and Eve. So, everyone has their faith tested since the earth was created. And we will continue to do so. Look at all that has happened because of their foundation of faith. That too can be in our lives and our eternal life to come. You never give up on your faith. Don’t put aside what you so strongly deep down inside know to be true for unwanted things or unnecessary choices of the world. Grab that faith and stay true and let it build up forever and have that constant companion of the holy ghost with you always so your temple will not be destroyed and that you can return to our Heavenly Father and all those that can be with you. The world is waiting for each of us to help and we must build up to take on the world and know that is why we are here.

Never forget that. Never forget your love and that you are made of God and he makes things so remarkably beautiful and that if he built you as a temple, IMAGINE WHAT HIS FOUNDATION OF FAITH IS TO YOU? IMAGINE IT JUST AS WHAT THE SAVIOR DID FOR YOU~ Can we do the same for each other and those we meet and remember why we are here. Please ask that in your hearts. Get the help you need to stabilize so you can be more secure and grow and not tear down what was created so beautifully for us.

We must grasp a hold of what we know in our hearts to be true. To see and believe in all faith and hold fast to our foundation. Take the baby steps necessary such as scripture, prayer, family home evening, visiting and home teaching. Going to the temple. Providing support to all those we can and help serve. No matter how big or small our faith can be at this moment, we must exercise it.

In closing I would like to have you ponder this, if we have so much desires and efforts we put in to worldly things and so much faith in ourselves that we can have that foundation in whether in our marriage, family, relationships, school, work, talents, and other things we spend our time and efforts trying to become better. Then Can we use that much effort and our strength and build our Foundation in Faith in God? In our Savior? In each other? If we have so much faith that builds us up to becoming better in what the world wants us to be or how we want to be or look or do? Then why can’t we do the same and use it spiritually for our eternal foundation in putting more faith in ourselves in the righteous choices, in forgiving others, not holding grudges.

Not comparing. Not coitizing others for whatever they choose to do or become. We all have a choice. We all god’s children and we must all find our faith in our own way. But judging and pushing away each other and not helping ourselves and each other no matter who it may be to grow our temples. To make sure we’re steady. To see the excitement of what we accomplish. Why can’t we make that sacrifice? This is eternal sacrifice not just a temporary. But we got to start somewhere. Why not now. Make steps to grow and not compare. To not think that our foundations and our faith are better than each other. We need to all be prepared and have faith every day and little more each day. Build our temples up and become what Heavenly Father wants us to be.

I chose to have faith in that. Faith in everything that I do no matter the trials that I face. To choose to keep my faith and when I crumble I build myself up and that is with the faith knowing Heavenly Father and My Savior are with me every step of the way. Even if it’s the smallest step. To hold fast to that rod. Not let the adversary win what I work so hard for. Just as you should do the same.

We all know where we need to be and what we need to be doing. How many reminders do we need? As many as the lord will provide. He has his ways and most of them are testing that faith. Every decision. Every trial. Every mistake. Every judgement.

We should choose what does our Heavenly Father and Savior want us to do? Is it for us? Or for them? Does the worldly foundations of popularity or mess up our plans seem better than our spiritual faith? I strongly believe that as I at least try then I’ll keep being healed every step of the way. So, can you. But we must be willing and we must start building something. For we can’t have someone else do it for us. Faith is so important in all aspects of our earthly life but more importantly our spiritual life and eternal life to come.

So grateful for the gospel. Grateful for the free agency and the knowledge. For our prophets and leaders. For all those in my life. For an eternal companion where we can grow together in faith in each other and in our family. That our children will see the impact and know for themselves to start building their temples and their faith more each day. Same with our extended family and those we meet. I’m forever grateful for the atonement for my savior who made it possible that when I crumble and when the adversary or judgement of how I am or how I should be comes from others, that I know for sure I’m a daughter of god and I’m beautiful inside and out and that I’m growing my foundation of faith no matter how many times I must be picked back up. That I won’t let that interfere with how Heavenly Father sees me or my Savior and neither should any of you. I testify that this gospel is true. I don’t have to see god or my savior to know it is. Because I Without Doubt Believe it to be true with all the faith that I have and growing and will not ever deny it. I hope to continue to do so and to carry my family along with my companion to the eternity’s and in hopes we all come together with no one left behind.

I say this in the name of Jesus Christ Amen

Jackie (2017)





Hello all that continues to read and support me. Thank you to all that are buying my books. It really does help so much. Not just because I get a dollar here and there after they get the rest lol. But it helps me grow and push me to do more. If I don’t write then I can’t help inspire and motivate others. I really do appreciate all my friends and family that support me and all of you that I’ve haven’t had the opportunity to meet. My prayers and love are always with you all each and everyday. With the world! So much is happening. Not only in my own life but your life and all around us. Which leads to my title Why I’m Grateful Even During Trials~ A friend awhile back couldn’t understand how I keep going and not just crumble and break. Not meaning in a bad way. With all the trials. So this is why I’m grateful.

I wake up and I see how blessed I am each day in all that is going on. I used to complain so much and be jealous that this person or that person was going there, or buying this, or having a vacation. It started getting me all depressed. I was tired of it. So I did something about it. First off I asked for forgiveness. My attitude really sucked . I seen the bad in everything and everyone around me. I was truly not happy. I wanted more. Well in order to get that you must change your ATTITUDE. So I worked on forgiving and softening my heart. I started taking time out for me in my writing and singing. Instead of being jealous of those around me, I started seeing the joy of the posts or messages. Started seeing how happy it made them. Started seeing they probably needed that more than I needed it. We never know what someone is going through. We should always be grateful for them. Our trials are not to be compared. Just as money, houses,jobs,family,skills,looks ,and well I could go on. You get the picture right?

When I’m depressed which I have fought depression since I was little and anxiety creeped up, I went to my doctor. I told him I had the drive still and I’m loving life but sometimes this takes over. He’s there to listen. I started a new depression pill. So far it’s helping. It’s not something to be ashamed of. You can’t help it. You just need to seek help before it gets worse. When I noticed that nothing was helping me, I knew I needed help. I prayed long and hard. I explained to my husband too. Trust me the adversary still tries to get at me. I’m not going to say that I have a ‘magic pill’. You can’t just take medicine and YAY! You’re just the best queen in the world. You have your moments. Why? Well because you’re human. You feel. But you have to work things out. You need to do your part. Clean your act up and attitude. We all have wants and desires. But they all come and go at different times. You have to experience things different from everyone else. Doesn’t mean you can’t and won’t get what you dream or desire. You will when it’s your time. Jealousy and acting out won’t help matters. Neither will holding grudges, arguing, refusing to help others, and list goes on. I’m not saying I’ve done all that or was, just giving examples.

Life has trials. Each day I try to see my blessings. Not just because of the horrible disasters. I was doing this before I got put on a depression pill too. I’m blessed because I have a husband that loves ALL OF ME. Even when I’m a jerk. I am the same with him. He’s so hardworking as a power lineman, father, husband,friend,and priesthood holder. I’m trying to be the same as a wife,mother,friend,ward missionary, student, and whatever else I choose to be. So why not be grateful for all that? I mean that’s what I always wanted right? YES! That’s what makes me happy right? YES! So why not be grateful ? So I do! I am. Each day. Just as with my health. I’m in physical therapy. It’s hard. I get bad headaches that last days and having plate and screws in my neck doesn’t help. Yet, I’m grateful. Why? Because I can have help with recovery. I can rest when needed in a bed. I can have medical doctors/medicines/specialists/ and whatever else  I need with that and all other trials of my health. You know that is such a blessing. So I’m grateful for that.

I’m grateful that my diabetes is under control. My A1c is still 6 or under for the past year. I can’t remember. It used to be almost a 10. Then went to 5.7 I believe . I’m grateful. Because of listening to the counsel of my physicians,family,friends, and those that love me, I managed myself well. I still want to lose like 40 more pounds. Which one day I’ll do it. Yet, I’m grateful. Grateful I have this trial. You may think WHY? Because it teaches me to be more careful with my body. Be more knowledgeable with my health. That way I can be of help to others in my life, such as my children. It’s hard at times. Exercising,watching what you eat, side effects, and so much more. Yet, it’s worth it when all that hard work pays off. You can’t just stop. It’s an ongoing process for the rest of your life.

I’m grateful for the back issues because not only am I in good hands with my physician and Neurosurgeon, I have a physical Therapist that is helping me learn and grow to help my back. I have a mri scheduled next week for it. From there when I see my Neurosurgeon, We’ll know what’s going on . Granted I’m not grateful with the pain, the tears, restless sleep, the numbness,spasms,shooting pain down my legs. The pain in my thighs,back,legs,feet,and glass sensations. So much going on and over time been getting worse. Sometimes it gets hard to walk at times. Just a simple step .You know what I do? I KEEP GOING. I grit my teeth and I keep going. Because I’m grateful. Grateful that while my physicians are working on what needs to be done, I can still manage and follow what they have me do. I have the assistance that I need. I’m grateful for that. Truly the support is wonderful and not many have that. I feel for them . If I continue to be grateful I’ll continue to work hard and one day be healed.

I’m grateful for work and school. Grateful to be able to have a job and help my family along with my spouse. So grateful to have technology to go to school online. That way I can be at home and still be a mother and wife. I’m grateful because I’m in my 2nd week and amongst all the trials and headache and just life, I’ve endured it. It’s hard! College is hard! Learning is fun though. I’m grateful to be able to do this. Working towards my Bachelor’s of Science in Marriage and Family Studies, I want to help others so much. I just have to keep working hard to get there. And working to finish my Young women’s personal progress. You just have to remember, just as I we’re all a WORK IN PROGRESS. That means you will continue to be and grow always and forever. There’s work to be done. There’s knowledge to be learned. Talents to express. Each other to love and support. Trials to conquer and endure. Tragedies that happen. But most important it’s life that needs to be loved, lived,endured,and be grateful with all seconds of it. You never know. You never know what happens that next second. Things change. You can’t stop it. You must learn to accept, grow, endure, learn, and appreciate. Or at least that’s what I’m doing or trying.

Life is beautiful and it’s hard. The trials you endure makes it more beautiful. For in my case, I life others up during my trials. For I make beautiful music by voice or keyboard and piano during life. My expressions through writing or art makes the world more beautiful in all circumstances. My heart feels more and loves more and appreciates more. It breaks just as a cocoon opens and beautiful butterfly comes out. We are that butterfly but we start over as the cocoon. Each time a new phase, a new trial or new change we keep changing. Should we just crumble and stop when things get hard? NO! We should be grateful because it turns to something much more beautiful in the end.

That’s why I’m grateful in my trials. No matter how hard it is. No matter how much I cry and I’m on my knees, I’m grateful. I’m grateful for all the beauty God gives me in this chance to live. I’ve come so far. It’s so amazing to look back and be grateful . Grateful in all that I have and all that I’m doing. Take a look at your life and see that. Truly. Not the trials or things you don’t have. Stop and look at what you have. What you feel. What you see and touch. Where you’re at. Where you’re going. Seriously , AMAZING! So proud of my willingness to keep going. To follow what my Savior would have me do. To lean on him at anytime. But with a open heart! TRULY WOW!

In the beauty of facing trials whether physically,emotionally,spiritually,financially, It’s there. I’m grateful for family and relationships. Grateful for talents and gifts. Grateful to support and love ALL PEOPLE. Oh  that’s my favorite part seeing so many shine. So right now, this moment, That’s why I’m grateful . My faith in God and myself and family and friends and life, keeps me going too. You got to have faith! Beauty is within the trials.. BE that beautiful butterfly. No matter how many times you have to hide back into a cocoon and blossom back out

Many prayers to all around the world and many thanks to all that helps around the world. May we all continue to love and support and help and not just in disasters. For we are all Children of God and we all need the love and support in many ways ~Much love ~Jackie


Hello everyone! It’s been a bit since I took time to just sing. And well  I decided to do just that today. To release some things that are bothering me. To not stress about getting some bills paid. And to just keep my faith and spirits. We all have those days. And if you could pray, that would be helpful.



You’re my angel ~

Someone like you ~

Dancing in the sky ~

Broken Wing ~

Foolish Games ~

Listen to your heart ~


It’s almost 2 months since my surgery. So my neck is getting better now that the plate and screws in it are too bothersome. I’m doing physical therapy 6 weeks . So I decided why not help with my throat since the incision on my throat’s getting better.  Sing my heart out !

As always keep being you. Just a reminder your support is very much needed. I love supporting all I can, but I’m kind of in a time where It will help me too. So if you can buy my books that will be such a help for expenses and medical bills 🙂

I support you and continue ❤ Never give up. And I will continue to work, get ready for college monday and be who I am as a mom and wife. And many prayers for all those that are suffering around the world. Disasters are hitting. May we be mindful we all need support whether in talents or physical, emotional, financial, or whatever needs. May we do that ALWAYS! Not just when something big happens. Continued prayers and always . Keep shining .~ Much love




Hello Everyone! I am in hopes that you all are doing well. I pray for everyone around the world. Whether I know you or not. It’s so comforting to know that you are out there and have so much to offer the world. I am doing the same. I always try to put others first. I try to keep going strong . We fail at times. We need to be reminded we are important.

Many of you know that I’ve written some books which I’ll post the links below. After praying and consulted with others whom I trust and with my Heavenly Father. I felt that the best thing would do is to try to sell my books so I can pay of my outstanding medical bills.

In 2012 I was really sick. Was going through a separation, had no insurance at the time, and several surgeries before. My medicines were almost 2000 a month. Something was failing and they didn’t know what. I had breathing machines and also pneumonia. I conquered that illness. I then divorced and was getting better and healthier. I tried to pay my outstanding bills from that time in the hospital. I owe $7800.00 now and it’s 2017 going on 2018. They either want 1300.00 a month for 6 months or 250.00 every paycheck which is bi weekly for me. I believe in paying debts and I have always done so. Health has been a major challenge. 9 surgeries and all these tests and issues. But I never stopped. Here we have a family, jobs, and working on buying our house. This debt , I got letter today. So I felt that If I could sale my books, whatever createspace/amazon takes out of it , they will send me the rest. Which then would go to my account to pay that debt down.

My Amazon page. My 3rd book will be on soon and to come ❤

When I moved to Ohio from Tennessee 3 years ago, I had deductibles, got a job and what my insurance didn’t pay , I was left and it is 4000.00 .. So Sadly , I must pay that debt too. If I don’t pay both, they will go to court. Being around court systems since I was born, I feel I’ve had enough of it. It doesn’t help paying 20 dollars or 200 here and there, they want all of it. So I know I’m working and family has always come first. but this time I need to come first as well. So I’m doing one of the hardest things and asking, If you all would be willing to buy my books or book that I’ve really worked hard and getting myself out there, I’d really appreciate it.

I will not make a donation page or a gofund me. I believe that as I continue to work and what my husband and I can do and whatever I have from my books will help pay the debt. That way it’s still my hard work and I’m not asking for a hand out. I believe in serving others and helping them. I’ve done that all my life. And if you are like me sometimes and feel that you cannot, don’t feel obligated. I normally don’t post things like this. I am staying positive and I’m working with them, it’s just another added stress and It will help me so much. But your prayers, uplifting comments, love,support would really help .

So know that I felt this was the best solution as , whatever percentage is left from amazon/createspace gives me from making my books and selling, every little bit helps. And I’ll be paying 250.00 per check on my 7800.00 balance and figuring out on the remainder 4000.00 .. Remember we’re all worth so much. We all need help and we all shouldn’t judge because we don’t know how one feels in situations. I’m used to raising awareness and things for others., not myself..

Truly thank you for your love and support. Thank you for just understanding and prayers. Especially for your follows. You keep shining and keep the faith in all circumstances ~ Much love ! JAckie


Hello Peeps! You are all beautiful . Whether you will see these words or not. My heart withstands so much. I seem to grow my heart more and more. I don’t really care if anyone believes that or not. I have so much  love for others. I honestly feel broken if I say something mean or do something that hurts someone else.

I feel sad when I can’t help another. I don’t know why I feel this way. I’ve been like this since I was little. And as I grew older and experienced so much heartache I’ve just grown stronger and closer to my savior. It’s personal for me. I’m just writing this here because it’s easier to manage in my life. Plus you never know if someone is needing to understand or feels the same way.

I don’t mind expressing my opinions and feelings but it’s more when I feel I really have something to say. I can’t make it happen. I just feel prompted to do so and I do it. It’s really helpful to look back too. I’ve been trying to accept others more each day of who they are. Yes, we all have moments where certain people will never change. This can be family, friends, or strangers. I honestly just skim the news once in awhile. I don’t like it. Doesn’t mean I don’t support it. I really don’t care of politics. Doesn’t mean I don’t vote etcc.. It’s not what I am focusing my life on. I’m focusing on trying to do my best so when I’m dead I know where I’ll be. That is my goal. I want to return to my creator. More than ever now. He’s been by my side always. Opened doors so I can live, have a family, be married, go to school, jobs, get my health took care of and so much more. So my purpose is to love and accept others and in hopes to take all I can with me and return to our Heavenly Parents. You may not believe in that. I accept that. Again, I don’t write to debate or tell you you’re wrong or I’m right. I am writing to help myself and understand why life is life. Why we need to do this or that? And the bonus it’s helping others be uplifted.

I’ve been given many talents in crafts,writing,singing,kindness,compassion,love,service and so much more. Who wouldn’t want to provide others with what you were given? I mean that with all my heart. I don’t care if I have 0 followers or 1 million. I don’t care if someone comments or just likes. I don’t flip out when there’s a favorite person who’s influenced me like or follows or even comments. Like I’ve said in the past we all have many things to offer this world. Some of us shine and others do it quietly .Doesn’t mean anyone is more important. Do you think I would believe someone that is in the ‘spotlight’ with over million viewers on things? Or the one that sits quietly , just as I am and speak her peace? I would try to get both views. Then make my choice. I shouldn’t disagree because in what today’s world they call it a ‘star’ . And a ‘loner’. Why not see them both for what they offer? We all have our fears and our reasons. So I rather see how we all can play in life’s roles and what they do to help me and others.

I don’t like popularity or having to choose between ‘favorites’. For me I have so many and I keep adding the list. So I just do my best in supporting the way  I feel is best and in hopes one day they take time to do the same. Even if no one notices you back, that’s just fine. Because at least you are doing what you believe in and that is what’s so beautiful . No one is more ‘popular’ than another. No one is loved more. That goes more into idols and other topics I just really disern from. You can have your favorites,dreams and wishes. But I firmly believe to do so with all you can and not just one group or one person or one thing. Understand??

What I truly care is if they know that whatever I say or what I’ve experienced will give them love,comfort,hope,uplift,or motivation. I can’t make others feel or see the things that I see. We’re not alike. But we all do matter. I try to avoid what the ‘world’ thinks is best. Most thing which really hurts is when you go all out on a compliment, letter,email,call,gift, surpise or whatever that may be and the reaction is either not noticed, just a like, an auto reply, or a recorded message etc ..You understand? It gets so frustrating opening your heart and feelings when there’s so many people liking or wanting the same things that you feel ‘you’re not good enough” OR you see that ” your not popular enough” or not wanted, or don’t look, act, do the same that would ‘draw attention”. You honestly want to know when I start down that road… I say this ..Honest and true. SNAP OUT OF IT! YOU KNOW BETTER! .Seriously I know better.. You know better. But we’re human. We feel things. We want others to acknowlege. I can’t make others do so. I will still show my love and support. But we can’t make others see your heart and feel what you mean.

We can wish and pray that all hearts softened and there’s more time spent on returning compliments,service,prayers,love,support,answers,questions,follows and so much more. That’s just life. Everything changes so fast and we don’t have time to catch up. That’s why I try to value what I have and my worth, gifts,family,friends,gospel and how I can help others then to see if ”I’ll ever be noticed”. Like I said we all shine differently. Either upfront or on sidelines. Either way YOU ARE AMAZING AND YOU KEEP GOING AND YOU KEEP BEING YOU>ALways know someone or many are learning and growing from you. So you never know the impact you are making. Try to make it a worth while and important. Instead of time waisted and hurtful . RESPOND! SUPPORT!ACCEPT!KEEP GOING! YOU MATTER.

I don’t know what’s best. Yet, I try to do what I think is best and that’s what God wants me to do. I’m speaking and singing from my heart. From my blood,sweat,experiences,and tears. From my happiness,and joy and awesome chances. Whatever the emotion I feel I try to express in a more uplifting way.

Darkness is around and in me at times. Same as others. We all make mistakes and some are just so hard to even imagine. Just as when I see , hear or know of someone experiencing something so heartwrenching. Yet, should we pay attention to how bad it is? Or compare? Should we focus on how much someone is having trials ? or judge whether it’s their fault or they get more attention? Such questions as these weighs in my heart. I’m not ashamed to admit when I feel depressed or not paid enough attention and I see someone in my family or amongst friends always getting that more than me it hurts.

Does that make me hate them and stop helping ? NO! I try to see how they are doing and feeling. Yet, I can’t. We don’t know. We can try to understand. Just as the same with all of us around the world. No matter who we are and where we come from we all have challenges. We all make choices. WE ALL SUFFER. We should not help or provide service to be in the ‘star light’. We should never compare our suffering to others. It breaks my heart to see how we must help these people or this country and not this person or that country or even our own. Why can’t we just have one main fund and just distribute as often and much as we can? Because life isn’t that easy. Because we all have our agencies to choose. That’s what I’m doing here in writing and in my life. I try to support financially,emotionally,spiritually, or physically all I can and when I can. Sometimes I can’t even do it all and it breaks my heart. That’s just fine. Doesn’t mean your thoughts and prayers don’t help. Doesn’t mean that you don’t accept others or want to help them.

You choose who you want to be. You choose who you should love. You choose how you act and how you’re going to accept others. I can’t choose it for you. I can’t make you either. I can only offer my heart and thoughts and you decide what to do. It may make a small change or a big impact. WHO KNOWS. But I strongly feel that my heart just wants all of us to accept others the way we want so bad for others to accept us. And that is strongly saying how we accept ourselves. No matter the gift ,you just keep shining and keep going and using your gifts for good. No matter the challenge you just show your love and support even in your own life. Please support and accept yourself.

I’m trying to do the same. It’s hard. Why do you think I talk or sing or do service or whatever I do? Because I’m trying to build up myself. Trying to feel the spirit and understand myself, my life, and others. To understand where I need to be and what I need to do. Understand why we are here. Accepting others is so so important. Can’t you see that? Can’t you see that no matter what anyone is facing that we NEED EACH OTHER? How can you eat, work, buy, shop,cook,clean,wear,drive,sing,dance,play sports, watch, shower,sleep,feed,discipline,learn,grow, or whatever else we can do in life without each other? Have we really stopped and seen what our purpose is for? I believe that’s returning ALL GOD’S CHILDREN BACK TO HIM. Never forgetting and turning away anyone and anywhere. No matter how many times.

Just be accepting that we’re different. We’re going to sound,look,feel,love,act,work,learn,grow,and so much more DIFFERENT. And to me THAT IS SO FREAKIN BEAUTIFUL. YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL. YOU! YES YOU. YES ALL OF US. INCLUDING ME. I DON’T CARE IF YOU BELIEVE THIS OR NOT. I KNOW IN MY HEART. MY HEART. MY FEELINGS THAT YOU ARE WHAT GOD HAS MADE. YOU ARE MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS AND YOU ARE NEVER ALONE. So why the heck do we make it so hard in life when all reality we all want the same thing. To experience,be acknowledge,accepted, loved,and so much more. All I can say is when I’m inspired by golly I am and that’s the way I see it and feel it and I’m leaving it ..


Much love ~ Jackie